It’s been a minute since the last time I wrote, and I really missed catching up with my blog. I hope you are doing well and 2019 is treating you good so far. I can’t believe that it’s already April, only three weeks left until graduations. The weather has been beautiful lately, warm weather motivates me to move more and be more active. So many things happened in the past four months, I experienced many joys, sorrows, excitements, and realizations. By far, this is the first semester where I experienced so personal growth in a short period of time.
I went through a heart-aching breakup in March during Spring break, but it was a mutual breakup so no hard feelings. It was so difficult because I traveled across the country to see them, and it sucked that it happened when I was there. I was away from my friends, family, and my safety net. We all have different coping mechanisms, and mine was to immediately surround me with my loved ones. I ended up leaving two days early, and I was so glad that I left. I got to enjoy the last two days of my break. It was painful to explain whenever someone asks me about my break. I must say I am doing so much better because I decided to allow myself room to grief and to feel all of those emotions.
Only a couple of weeks left until graduation, and I am beyond excited to wrap up my last year of graduate school. I really enjoyed all of my classes this semester, especially my Design Studio class, working with hardware for the first time. I’m more of a software person, so meddling around with hardware was an interesting learning experience. The most valuable life skills class this semester is my Negotiation and Conflict Management class. Learning how to negotiate is an eye-opening experience. I learned how to set up a best alternative resolution, tactics to deal with difficult negotiators, and how to prepare for a negotiation. I’m going to practice all of these skills every opportunity I have, especially since almost everything can be negotiated ^.^”
When it rains it pours.
Within three weeks, I experienced two losses, the passing of a friend and the passing of one of my uncles. Their deaths shocked me because they were both young, my friend was only twenty-six and my uncle was only forty-six. For my friend, he was someone who was impactful within the Asian community at our school, especially within the Asian greek community. Since our community is connected, we were grieving together and sharing our pain with one another. My uncle passed away in Vietnam in a car accident, leaving behind his wife and two children. His passing was harder because he was family, and my mother was very close to him and I was closed to his oldest daughter. Since my mother and I are the only ones living in the U.S, it was very difficult because we couldn’t be there to grieve with our family. The most that we were able to do was face time them every day, and checking up on them.
My heart has never experienced that many cuts like that before, as soon as one scar is healed, another cut happened.
During these difficult times, I’m learning to accept my vulnerabilities and allowing myself to heal. Healing is painful, and the pain comes and goes. Somedays are harder than others, but hard days are here so I can appreciate the good days. I’m beyond thankful for my family and friends for being my support system. All the shoulders I cried on, all the hugs that held me together, and all the broken pieces they picked up, I am grateful for all of these blessings.
It’s been a while since my last blog, and there are so many exciting things that are coming up in the next couple of months. I will be traveling quite a bit between May and July, then I will be moving into a new apartment and starting my new job. Everything is coming together so fast, and I cannot wait to share more of it with you. Till next time!!
Thank you for reading ^.^